A Time To Be So Small

lxonxmyxownxl @ 2006-02-11T08:39:00

2006-02-11T16:41:47Z

tell me if this makes any sense...anyone. thanks.

Untitled.
The night rose upon the house of bones.

Crawled up the walls to where light was stored.
Crawled up until it found the reward.

Uncertain, unfamiliar, was the night to this circle and cross.
Uncertain, unfamiliar, acceptance was the boss.

Sang, oh some song, to the beat of the heart,
Sang, o.h some sang, with two feelings torn apart

The night, it called to one in tones of moans.
The night, it brought stars to the house of bones.

All, in all, in all, in all, in all, in all, in all…
The day was swept away.

any ideas for improvement is appreciated. just an assignment for english class.

lxonxmyxownxl @ 2006-01-18T19:33:00

2006-01-19T03:34:33Z

st. thomas this summer!

final part - part 3 - stanford university

2005-12-31T22:27:27Z

this post was quite delayed since i tried to do it a few days ago, and i was halfway done when the whole thing jus got deleted. but here it is...the most beautiful school of my life, stanford. its jus....ahh you'll see for yourself

driving into the school

center of 'the oval'

the oval once again

the right side of the front of the street

the left side of the front of the school

the middle - the church

looking left once again...reminds me of inferno :)

a hall to the right.

the quad...i think

garden of statues....by auguste rodin

thats me...thinking about going to stanford [or just perhaps college in general]

but my parents were excited?

so i continued on my journey through the valleys of hell, looking left...

looking back...

and forward into the white i call home. all the artwork you'll see was done in mosiac, in gold [gilded?] and was just incredible. everything was amazing.

faith...very important to me

looking up

inside the church. absolutely stunning...though my dad says the vatican blows this place out of the water. haha, im sure he's right

a few problems with this picture...jus turn your head to the left, and its the back of the church. there was a huge organ...that was beautiful. picture is too dark

looking up. photo does not do justice, but im sure you understand.

i love ashton :-)

oh!! the man and woman whom we all come from! how comforting...brilliant

one of..three or four libraries

clock tower and the green library

dorms

once again, dorms. which is freakin crazy. i wana live there?

pretty random...but they have awesome things/statues all over the campus

here's two more...in the front and back

backside of one of the libraries

across from one of the bookstores

old union

music center

outside of the church

mechanical engineering

made me excited :-)

statistics department!

such a pretty building...such an ugly subject of study

enter the garden of rodin, i believe its called. all of these statues were amazing...done by one man, dont remember what time period.

there you go. and now presenting 'the three shades'

the big chunk on the right:

speechless.

in the middle you'll see a skeleton...i thought that was awesome

its hard not to look back...

but its hard to move on without your foundations

to a place like stanford university.

and there you go. the pictures, i believe, speak for themselves.
this place was amazing and i hope i can go back....hope you enjoyed

part 2 - uc berkeley!

2005-12-28T23:00:28Z

pictures from my trip to UC Berkeley...the school was awesome. i know anna wants to go there! im sure she would love it. as for me, i would love it too. it was a great place...very very different, and telegraph street was a trip to say the least. but that place is great!

ok...and i dont know what all of the buildings are except for a few.

awww under sather

my favorite building at berekely. the life sciences building!

botany!

psychology for rachel!

biochemistry! haha

memorial pool

self-explanitory

in front of the library

the entrance...beautiful

i want to know so badly who that is...

a cool spider lol

business building

in front of the law building...a quote by cardozo

a little around the campus

from one...

came all

and thats it...awesome place. if only i could get in...haha well im gona work on that one. if you have any questions, ask. cuz i saw a lot more around the school that i didnt take pictures of. coming up...stanford. keep in mind this is a public school.... :-)

part 1 - girls volleyball banquet

2005-12-28T22:37:06Z

here are pics from the girl's volleyball banquet...a while ago. for rachel.
and no, i dont care how big the pictures are.

sugar mama

varsssssssssssss

kris and nic

stats fool

so cyute

almost all of the freshman/sophmore team. they are awesome

seniors

sabrina

crystal

tania

tracy!

oh...steph

abby.raquel.steph.rach.ashley

my setters

hahhaha my favorite people

tis all. rachel, save these to your computer. peace

lxonxmyxownxl @ 2005-11-01T21:19:00

2005-11-02T05:21:28Z

can someone possibly download the song "change the world" by eric clapton and send it to me through aim or something? it would be awesome, thank you very much.

lxonxmyxownxl @ 2005-09-04T15:46:00

2005-09-04T22:50:24Z

its been a real hard weekend, with loads and loads of homework. i have so much to do today and tomorrow - i think i might be staying up all night so i can chill with rachel tomorrow since she gets a holiday off her punishment. i promised her at least an hour. psychology is easy but stressing, history is a complete overload, calculus is difficult, and physics is 'almost possible.' volleyball is great though, favorite part of the day.

well im gona go do something. uh...see everyone tuesday.

lxonxmyxownxl @ 2005-08-18T18:56:00

2005-08-19T02:11:10Z

4th day of school, bummered.

AP PSYCHOLOGY
we really didnt do too much. went over the man who mistook his wife for a hat...took the test which was real real easy. then watched some winnie-the-pooh movie about the heffalump. is it weird that i've never seen or read any of those pooh bear stories? i dont know...i dont remember my sisters reading em either. we have a test on pooh and the psychologists tomorrow

HISTORY
eh ashton isnt that hard as of right now. she gave us the whole period just to work on a map which me and caitlin owned. ashton also plays music in class, like neil diamond and simon and garfunkel which is tite. i like her a lot i think

ENGLISH
wow smith wasnt even here today. we jus did our warm up thing and a pretest for some college. only 40 problems, for the whole day. god i love the way that man teaches

AP CALCULUS
i really dont think im gona do good in this class. we did a whole mess of shit today, just with the summer assignment and it alllll went way over my head. and...im just really scared that this class is gona be a lot harder then i thought it would have been.but i really really need to get this stuff, at least for physics

AP PHYSICS
dude. we had the most........................confusing, intellectual, way beyond me, crazy, perplexing, weird, genius conversation today in this class. i really dont think i can handle it. but the worst part is that...we havent even started learning physics yet. and i feel so damn stupid in this class! everyone in there is just so damn smart and then there is me. and i really wonder what im doing in there. i jus really hope i learn something real good out of this class

VOLLEYBALL
well...just played doubles with chris. nothing special i guess. i didnt do well but its okay i dont mind

GIRLS VOLLEYBALL
uhh just helped out with everything today. helped moulden with some drills...peppered with some people, and just chilled. im glad tryouts are over because the gym was fucking crowded. and i hope they take away that damn stereo because im getting fucking annoyed with the music playing.ya ya i dont know

i think this year is gona be a real drag. its gona be so hard, but as of right now im ready for a challenge. i jus want to start calc and physics already! im sick of waiting. but anyways...i was supposed to do something tonight but i forgot what it was. okay well i have some homework. see most of you at school tomorrow. YES FRIDAY. I GET PAID!

lxonxmyxownxl @ 2005-08-15T06:04:00

2005-08-15T13:04:45Z

im so bummed school's happening again this year :(

lxonxmyxownxl @ 2005-08-12T12:19:00

2005-08-12T19:20:30Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARC!

lxonxmyxownxl @ 2005-08-03T22:08:00

2005-08-04T05:08:40Z

0 - AP Psychology :: Hollenbaugh
1 - H US History :: Luko
2 - H American Lit :: Smith
3 - AP Calc BC :: Piper
4 - AP Physics :: Vanderway
5 - Volleyball Conditioning :: Harp
6 - GIA Volleyball :: Moulden

you know the drill

lxonxmyxownxl @ 2005-07-26T16:42:00

2005-07-27T00:20:01Z

okay so i am officially updating from my past weekend in santa barbara, staying at my sisters house with rahil and leanne. we had an amazing time, and it was a very cool experience. i also have reeeal old pictures from sadie's at granada so enjoy those as well.

and

SADIE'S

shout out to anna i miss her so much! but i respect her canadian decisions :)

shout out to brianne too cuz she got her permit and shes the best driver!

dont blame me im just posting what i got

SANTA BARBARA

jus driving there

just the driver

hot car

scenic 1

scenic 2

scenic 3

scenic 4

scenic 5 and im getting bored

my sister's house in which we stayed. anyone notice that TA is as T as the garage?

walking to the beach from my sister's house

some backyards

beach. those houses are for students and you jus walk right down to get to the beach. and that far land sticking out is on campus.

francisco torres. the dorms my sister lived in first year

sister's upstairs with the kitchen/living room

leanne chilling

rahil chilling

leanne laughing her ass off!

me chilling

rahil doing his thang

leanne doing her thang

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol j/k

sister's balcony

sleep. after partying, of course

sister's cool stairs. leanne's devilish shadow.

next morning - beach

leanne y rahil

finding sands if you know what i mean

cool house we saw along the way

we found sands. and two awesome dogs, and a lot of surfers - oh and a good time of course

me. out there, getting the greatest sun burn of my life.

once again, catching waves and mighty rays

random lol.

: - (

my sister says no

oh and i -

wasnt even drinking yet

sister amanda

kings!

oh man lol

fuckin lee

fuckin mee

fuckin tee[a]

artwork at silver greens

oh god here starts the ping pong pics [by the way i owned everyone]

leanne gave me a good run i give her credit.

tried to take a picture of my burn. you cant really see it though. anyways - an action shot

then we left :-( it was so much fun but i wish rachel could have gone with us

driving home -

some sort of weird ass 'in n out'

rahil fell asleep on his floral pillow

then we stopped for miniture golf in ventura :-)

the result of each of our first hits on the first holes...isnt that weird? me = red, leanne = pink, rahil = puke orange

the castle!

but it's actually a church

the hole me and leanne struggled on. i got 13, leanne got.......40

the result:

what's the stuff you ask? well...you're gona have to figure that one out yourself.

then we stopped at in-n-out of course

i think leanne is secretly a tomato

bobbing for deep-fried fat foods

my favorite!

and tis all. i got home is so much pain because i got burned but it was worth it;

yaaaa bad

okay, i love santa barbara and my sister and college for treating me so good. i cant wait until STEP. thats all i have to say. peace

lxonxmyxownxl @ 2005-07-14T13:43:00

2005-07-14T20:46:29Z

happy birthday to my best friend in the world

lxonxmyxownxl @ 2005-07-12T22:10:00

2005-07-13T05:20:44Z

oh man summer is going by way too fast it kinda sucks. but i cant wait until august if you know what i mean :-). but really, there has been some good ass stuff that has happened lately. first off, i got a 5 on my AP test in world history, which i am very happy about and congrats to everyone who took it and tried, whether you guys passed or not. second, but not that great, work has been eh. me and rachel are getting one four hour day a week which really sucks and this week we only have one day again so im really mad. i guess i cant really do much though, except not buy a lot of shit for a while. in addition, paris has been really good to me like you wouldnt know. uhh i cant really think.

i've also had good times with people i havent seen in a while like ally. im so glad i got to see her again cuz its been a really long time. it was great talking to her and jus catching up and chilling and having a good ass time! gracias para leanne tambien for making it all happen at her house. i also saw heather and melissa today which was so amazing cuz first, heather got her license and her mustang looks amazing lol [really shiny] and melissa i havent seen in sooooo long and she looked so great and shes such a great person and i cant wait for her to go to granada next year. i also saw chrissy tonight which is always a blast cuz shes one tite baller. and shout out to marc who is working his ass off and getting paid like its no one's business. and also rahil just got back from his boda and im glad cuz now spanish will be filled with false pronunciations and interesting finger [just one finger though] puppets :) yeeeeeeha.

okay this is unorganized. but summer school has been really fun and im actually learning a lot. there is a lot of work, some i really just cant and dont understand, but i think i'll be okay for the week. alright. well im free this week since i aint fucking working, so holler. peace

subway - eat fresh

2005-06-19T22:51:43Z

work has been pretty fun lately. the first day it was kinda hard cuz it just seemed like there was a lot to do at once and you had to always be doing something. but after four days, i think im used to it and its becoming routine to do stuff. i work with the most awesome people though! for one, rachel, my sistah from another mistah [happy father's day]. and then there's jululia and tiffany and alexis and stuart and walter and jacob lol. everyone's real nice and funny, especially jululia and tiffany. tiffany baptized me today with the sink water. oh and thanks everyone for coming to visit. heather/jamie...marc...chrissy...jordana...roger! lol ok well my six months for driving is up on thursday so that should cause a party haha. today is father's day and i went out to breakfast with my mom dad and grandfather and im gona go see star wars with my dad soon and then dinner i think. alright well im out. peace and come visit me at subway on reseda/devonshire but dont expect a free meal or a non-messy sandwich cuz i kinda suck. bye

...any kind of coke...

2005-06-11T20:22:58Z

the COKE party was the most amazing thing ever. i've never had soo much fun at the beach! and the weather just totally worked out for us so it was all perfect. i felt summer right when i walked on that beach and it was awesome. im so sorry that jordana and marc and kk could not go, but there will be a next time for sure. ahh im loving it. i jus have to clean out my car now from all the sand / COKE cans / fooood that is left over that eric got stuck with lol. alright well the next stop is a JOKE so u can all talk to rachel about that one :). thanks to chrissy for accepting my music and even bringing it to the party and also making the party up in the first place! thanks to rachel for helping planning out the party from day...20 or so. los tres? yes. thanks to laura aka LEM for being a trooper and driving down with her ghetto self to zuma and for dancing to sweetness - i thought it was amazing. thanks to rahil for being the TA of the group and diving when he realllly needed to because i love to see that kind of effort on the beach. thanks to crystal for trying so damn hard to be the best at volleyball, which she did succeed, and for totally taking on those waves head on. thanks to leanne for sticking with the group even though she couldnt breathe out in the ocean, cuz i couldnt have caught any of the waves without her. and last but certainly not least, thanks to anna for being the best and coming down from sun valley to chill at the beach with her favorite people :). shes leaving for canada today and im going to miss her soo much! i hope she has a safe and extremely wonderful trip and comes home with many new can-eh-dian experiences! overall, COKE was a sucess and i couldnt have asked for anything better.

lxonxmyxownxl @ 2005-06-06T22:37:00

2005-06-07T06:15:49Z

please just dont play with me
my paper heart will bleed
this wait for destiny wont do
be with me please i beseech you
simple things, that make you run away
catch you if i can

today was an almost depressing day, since last night/this morning's [early early morning] actions totally blah-ed me. i couldnt help but just feel kind of alone. so much has been changing around me and last night i felt like there was a cycle of just everything that i was starring at and it was just circling around me yet i was staying in the same place while everyone else was moving. it...i dont know how i feel about it. it's there and it's fun and it makes you unaware but it changes you. and it changed you. and thats just hard to deal with and right now it hurts to sit here, alone, and deal with it.

moving on is easiest when i am around you

on a brighter note, i heard Interpol's "NYC" on television three times in the last few days! first time, was on True Life: Im Dead Broke when they were talking about how poor they were and how they had no opportunities in life to help them get anywhere in the real world. the second time was on True Life: Im Dead Broke when they were talking about how poor they were and how they had no opportunities in life to help them get anywhere in the real world. the third time was on the introductory to the new Real World: Austin where Johanna [i believe that's her name] was talking about her family and how they werent close at all. i love that song [it's my icon].

summer time, the nights are so long
the leaves fall down,
and so do i into the arms of a friend.
winter nights, my bedside is cold
for i am gone,
the spring blossoms you to me.

this has been the most eventful summer yet : )

lxonxmyxownxl @ 2005-03-30T20:01:00

2005-03-31T04:02:16Z

lxONxMYxOWNxl: translate lake
SmarterChild: I can't believe you want me to translate lake.
lxONxMYxOWNxl: translate lake
SmarterChild: Translate lake?
lxONxMYxOWNxl: define translate
SmarterChild: Definition provided by The American Heritage® Dictionary of the English Language, Fourth Edition. Copyright © 2000 by Houghton Mifflin Company. Other important copyright information here.

translate:

Verb
Inflected forms: trans·lat·ed, trans·lat·ing, trans·lates
Verb
tr. 1. To render in another language. 2. a. To put into simpler terms; explain or interpret. b. To express in different words; paraphrase. 3. a. To change from one form, function, or state to another; convert or transform: translate ideas into reality. b. To express in another medium. 4. To transfer from one place or condition to another. 5. To forward or retransmit (a telegraphic message). 6. a. Ecclesiastical To transfer (a bishop) to another see. b. To convey to heaven without death. 7. Physics To subject (a body) to translation. 8. Biology To subject (messenger RNA) to translation. 9. Archaic To enrapture.
Verb
intr. 1. a. To make a translation. b. To work as a translator. 2. To admit of translation. 3. To be changed or transformed in effect. Often used with into or to: "Today's low inflation and steady growth in household income translate into more purchasing power" (Thomas G. Exter).

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lxONxMYxOWNxl: translate lake from english to spanish
SmarterChild: Translate lake from english to spanish?
lxONxMYxOWNxl: yes
SmarterChild: Oh.
lxONxMYxOWNxl: how do you say lake in spanish?
SmarterChild: Wow, you ask interesting questions. What do you think is the answer?
lxONxMYxOWNxl: translate lake into spanish
SmarterChild: Um, let's see... donde está mi taco? Is that good? No, I mean, um... See, thing is, I don't really speak Spanish too well.
lxONxMYxOWNxl: omg im going to kill you
SmarterChild: You and whose army?

lxonxmyxownxl @ 2005-03-27T06:55:00

2005-03-27T14:55:14Z

Rahil Patel is the most selfish person I've ever met in my entire life.
WHAT A SELFISH LITTLE ASS!

happy birthday rahil, melanie, jazzlyn, judy, and lil clinton

2005-02-28T06:42:39Z

|_ i had the BEST time friday night going to the play at chaminade. andrea was freakin amazing and so were many of the other people but i dont know their names. i saw susan and talked to her for a bit and that was very nice. i also meet the one and only SASS unit and they were so much fun and i can tell they are crazy cool people. very nice to meet them all. hanging out with meccajad is always always a good time, and our granada crew totally tore up the stage at nade. after g homies left, i had the pleasure of driving SASS around the parking lot which was such an exhilarating experience haha. after i secretly dropped them off i went to in n out where i saw heather and laura and i also noticed that wes and noreen were there too. there were probably others but i didnt see em. it was a really cool surprise lol.

|_ i woke up on saturday and me, rachel, leanne, and rahil went out to denny's for a semi-pre-birthday breakfast. the food was gooooood it felt good to eat lol. it was jus great how the grand slam was jus smooshed into the little corner haha. the milkshakes there are also off the hook [rachel - thanks for sharing] so that made me happy. afterwards, i went home and then around 5 me and leanne went to the mall to get rahil his present. we got him good shit, including a gumball machine that can not be outdone. after that me and leanne went back to her house and then staci showed up with her brand new car! its totally awesome. its an altima, with great ass lights in it. its so great. u know how its gona be staci. were gona hit the streets for sure! so then when she was leaving, rahil came, and then rahil got his gift and we played mario and mancala for the rest of the night. went home around 11 after getting wendy's, got home and then went to sleep.

|_ i woke up this morning to a bunch of peoples' glorious birthdays [look at subject line for whose] which is always nice. i woke up pretty late too. i then called rahil to take his order :). i went out to taco bell and maggies, and brought it home cuz i couldnt drop it off at rahils. in between all this was video games and homework by the way. so then at 6 i dropped off rahils food, gave him his CARD [oh you know it was beauty] and said my happy birthday wishes. happy birthday to all of you! rahil - mel - jazzlyn - judy - lil clinton. the rest of the day was blah. thats pretty much it. my computer is totally messed up so dont count on me going online. i found out today that im physically and emotionally dependent on technology. ohh boy what a world this is

goodnight

lxonxmyxownxl @ 2005-02-16T21:41:00

2005-02-17T05:43:39Z

ok i think its time to go now...
i dont really plan on stopping on the way or waiting up to see what happens becuase it'll just take up my time. plus, my days are numbered and i can hear the right side calling my name.

i want to go west

lxonxmyxownxl @ 2005-02-13T21:46:00

2005-02-14T05:52:24Z

friday night was un-describably fun. i really needed that night. hanging out with meccajad was jus so much fun and an awesome awesome time. one of the best nights i've ever had probably. it must be done again real soon. i love you all, and see you tomorrow.

exactly. it's all part of the plan.

for she's a jolly good fellow...

2005-02-11T02:57:48Z

today is an extremely special day.

happy birthday to AMANDA! everyone, its her 16th birthday and im sure she is totally living it up. amanda, i hope kennedy gave you a great birthday cuz i know that granada would have! gosh it does NOT seem like a year since ur last birthday. holy shit. much changed, yes? lol for sure. so much has changed [and it glad cuz my hair back then was ew - even though it looks the same as now :)]. i miss you so much amanda! its really not the same anymore, not seeing you everyday. but its been like a year and a half, so i've gotten used to the pain :-(. oh you know i still love you though! u've always been there for me - seriously, without a doubt. one of the few people i can really say that about. and thanks, so much for that. you mean so much to me. all of our experiences at school and at concerts are probably the most memorable of my life so far. concerts especially are some of the best days of my life, and you know it wouldnt have been the same without you there. i just love how we were able to rock out with no care in the world. great amazing times that i will certainly never ever forget. your friendship means a crazy amount to me, and i think its really awesome how we still talk after all this time of not seeing one another. i cant even remember the last time i saw you. was it a year ago? no. it couldnt have been. alana's birthday party? i think so...but that was....6 months ago? thats absolutely crazy. but i mean. were still friends. i still love you just as much as i did, and you mean so much to me. i hope you have an awesome awesome extremely great birthday, because you honestly deserve it. i hope i get to see you this weekend - if not, then we'll mos def for sure work something else out. i love you amanda! keep it cool, stay yourself, because you are an amazing person. happy sixteenth :)!

picture update

2005-02-07T06:53:29Z

so today was superbowl sunday. patriots won! if you see me tomorrow [and if i remember], i will be representing for sure. ok so i have pictures of going to katies with rahil and alana, and then sometime where i drove rahil and leanne, and then a few of today with rahil and leanne at my house when they came over for the superbowl. we went in my new jaccuzi which was sweet. real hot times. its gooooooooood. also, last night was heather's surprise sweet 16 brought to you by leanne and it was brilliant. absolutely amazing and very very fun. a very happy birthday to heather. i had the best time, seeing some new faces and there were surprises throughout the whole night. great times :)

iss

tic

lol j/k

first time in traffic!

it led up :(

i keep my eyes on the road. no time for pictures

oh for sure

alana alana

i didnt take it

oh wont you look at my red hair / face / hands --

this is where leanne comes in

i left it in for too long. my fat ass forgot about it

today: superbowl sunday. leanne and rahil came over. jack + jacuzzi + the damn game = tiredness dude

haha his expression says it all.

until next time-
eric

lxonxmyxownxl @ 2005-02-02T16:56:00

2005-02-03T00:59:02Z

this video could not have come at a better time. its completely amazing, extremely emotional and an inspiration for me for sure. i cant really express it. but it jus touched me like no other video has ever before. just. everything. so amazing. so powerful. and i felt he was right there with me when we were both crying to the screen. im so glad i saw it; perfect timing. just when i forgot whats really important in life, it came to remind me. oh